motherhood and childhood are complex, complicated and heart-expanding, heart-breaking and heart-full journeys — but mostly elusive destinations, in our rose-colored or cracked rearview mirrors /

today is an exceptional day for revisiting motherhood, childhood and mother-child relationships //

Mothers’ Day, for many mothers and children often feels unbearable from physical loss or heavy with physical absence; it may be pregnant with disappointment, misunderstandings, unrealistic or unmet expectations; reminiscent of failures, judgment and estrangement;— or worse, it may be painful with the memory or ongoing experience of neglect, abuse, betrayal or disownment ///

these golden beings that we, mothers, carry and birth from our bodies and raise up with our arms and hearts into a world that is too often, dark and heavy /

mothers were once golden beings too //

mothers can be|come dark and heavy worlds too ///

i am for respite today

i am for the weightlessness – of contentment, of acceptance, of peace,

i am also hopeful for the buoyancy or sustenance of authentic laughter and joy,

— and if possible, for us to abandon the pretense, expectation and tension of this particular Sunday, altogether

and

for all mothers – in all our various incarnations — and especially for all of our children,

to just be.

there are no children — without their mothers
and there are no mothers — without their children