my mother turned 75 years-old yesterday
and that’s all i know,
about her
anymore
in mid-July, the summer-resident barn swallows who had successfully raised and launched four fledglings by June 23rd, 2025, attempted to raise a second brood;
while i am not absolutely sure if it was the same set of parents or another in the barn swallow community that utilized the nest — as there is a collective of more than a dozen swallows that visits and assists in feeding sometimes too — it is most likely they are the same parent pair;
this is the second summer the barn swallows have nested here in my barn — using last year’s well-constructed nest which they attached to one of the joists like a balcony cantilevered on a Chicago highrise;
i began leaving the overhead barn door open when i first noticed them circling and investigating the barn a few years back; and i was thrilled last year when they began construction of their nest — they were so very welcomed and wanted here — i now know to leave the barn door raised from mid May through July to give them access.
i carry on in absentia
dialogues
monologues — rhetoric, socratic, analytic,
with — and for, people i once
knew,
had,
loved,
who i have lost or misplaced,
or
who have lost or misplaced me,
in some way,
the absurdity of the beauty of this dawn moment,
the absurdity
of the normalization of any moment or day, in life,
of the uninhibited and unselfconscious public documentation of both the ordinary and the excesses of life
simultaneous to
the People of Gaza documenting
Israeli Zionists
confining, starving, shooting, bombing, maiming, killing
and
incinerating
children,
in Palestine.
My dear friend, of two intense, revelatory years of intimate and prolific communication
if there was a Mother God,
if God was a Mother,
not “were”
this wouldn’t be
our reality
a dying planet
a deadened polity
mass extinction by chainsaw, net,
bolt-gun or bomb
they said, “96% of children in Gaza feel that death is imminent”
in Sudan, the famine is massive,
oh, this reaper, he is very discriminate
in Congo, there’s mass enslavement for minerals,
see the phone in her hand?! her hypocrisy?! she can’t claim to be innocent!
the Pacific’s so hot,
that it’s killed 4 million murres
while the Indigenous still invoke
“cultural rights” to baby seal furs
therefore,
God is either male — or, truer,
the God who created everything,
was the very first one extincted,
as Nietzsche,
and the german thinkers before him,
all, belatedly said,
“The assumption that animals are without rights and the illusion that our treatment of them has no moral significance is a positively outrageous example of Western crudity and barbarity. Universal compassion is the only guarantee of morality.”
Regular firearm, deer hunting season began yesterday in Michigan, United States of America, and the crack of rifles and the blast of shotguns destroy both peace and life.
There is some version of a legalized, defined kill list or belated, legalized “protection list” for nearly every non-human animal being population on Earth. And, for human animal being populations on Earth too.
What defines murder for human beings, of the human animal body?
INTENT.
All Hunting is INTENT – intent to kill.
All animal “livestock” agriculture is INTENT — intent to kill for profit.
Genocide is INTENT.
Continue reading “contemplating intent, consent, kill lists and ceasefire: deer hunting season, regular firearm, November 15 – 30, 2024 Michigan, U.S.”
and this Autumn, and last, and every season in between have required so much Auden
lilacs re-leaf, re-bloom
in October
hummingbird moths feed,
and simultaneously,
She’s un-be-coming a human be-ing
She’s destined to,
we’re destined to, too
no
need to
tell me, explain
what’s happening
as constant witness,
as constant, remote witness to slaughter,
as constant gardener,
as constant tender,
as constant daughter,
i see.
i recognize.
i know,
Continue reading “phenology II”if you’re seeing this, you’re alive,
though dying — no matter your age, health, relative safety, relative comfortability —
on this living, though suffering and actively dying, planet
Earthlings and Earth together in a protracted hospice
right now, in these brief years, these grief years,
we are the “ever-living ghosts of what once was”
a “was” that most all of us alive this morning have never known as lived experience — save for the untouched tribes — 10,000 Uncontacted Peoples — 10,000 unsystematized, “uncivilized”
and the Ocean, and the few, still-standing Ancient One Trees; the untouched Desert, and the Mountains — even the youngest of them — The Tetons and The Himalayas, know what it “was” to be alive.
we are mere ghosts, walking dead.
i offer purple bouquets
rooted in the ground,
not dying, wasted, in vase or pot
this purple
reflected in your eyes, my eyes
monarchs married in our october gaze
we’re not long for this world, we, monarchs, asters, and crone
still, we feast, without any gluttony, waste or fear
one of us, prepares for honeymoon flight to Mexico
where marigolds and death await
later, birds with bellies filled by aster, will seed a known, unknown future
crone’s eyes full and clear, she sees it all, near and far, past, present, future, winter and spring
she is rooted too, laughing and grieving in the threshold
between death and the future, future and the death
between remnant wild and final ravagement
between time and anti-time
thousands of purple petals cascade from her crown chakra like asters //
Continue reading “asters, monarchs & crone”another part of mourning, an enduring part of mourning:
the loss of the “institutional knowledge” of you that they alone held, documented and archived;
when
a life-long, childhood or early adulthood friend
a beloved mother, or grandmother, or father,
a harmonious sibling, a close cousin
a long-time lover,
a partner in a long marriage, officiated — or not
a child whom you birthed or raised and who may have also birthed or raised you, have mercy.
when, those relationships become one-sided through death — or other endings,
not only are they gone,
Continue reading “institutional knowledge”ISRAEL is perpetrating INDISPUTABLE textbook GENOCIDE in GAZA.
ISRAEL is an uncontrollable, gone-rogue nuclear-state that has not abided any UN resolutions for ceasefire or immediate international humanitarian aid delivery.
ISRAEL has either intentionally targeted or effectively admitted that it cannot control its own military troops after the targeted triple strikes on marked/identifiable and IDF pre-approved World Central Kitchen vehicles — killing 7 multi-national humanitarian aid volunteers. Hence, World Central Kitchen is suspending operations in Gaza, and its ships with 240 tons of remaining food on board for Gaza have departed back to Cyprus.
THE UN must deploy peacekeeping forces.
U.S.-controlled NATO sits on its hands while the atrocities in GAZA are in plain sight for everyone with a screen. The whole World is watching an acute HOLOCAUST of PALESTINIAN PEOPLE.
U.S. President Joe BIDEN & U.S. Secretary of State Anthony Blinken unconscionably deny that ISRAEL has committed any WAR CRIMES or CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY — though:
ISRAEL has murdered at least 10,000 PALESTINIAN children in six months’ time.
ISRAEL has murdered at least 9,000 PALESTINIAN women in six months’ time.
ISRAEL has has murdered doctors, nurses, journalists and humanitarian aid workers.
ISRAEL has targeted and destroyed hospitals schools and housing.
ISRAEL has completely destroyed 90% of the hospitals in Gaza.
ISRAEL has committed human horrors — rivaling those of the Nazi SS — at the Al-Shifa Hospital Medical Complex.
ISRAEL is actively and intentionally denying or destroying food aid and destroying fresh water sources and infrastructure. ISRAEL intends to GENOCIDE ONE MILLION PALESTINIAN PEOPLE in GAZA by famine and thirst and denial of medicine and medical and surgical treatment.
ISRAEL has destroyed more than half — possibly up to 80% of structures, infrastructure and land in Gaza. This is a U.S. “Manifest Destiny” playbook dispossession and removal via destruction and genocide. //
U.S. President Joe BIDEN and his administration have forced AMERICANS to directly underwrite this GENOCIDE by using AMERICAN taxpayer dollars to fund ISRAEL’s HOLOCAUST of GAZA with cash and weapons.
Continue reading “Zionism is Nazism | Israel’s Holocaust of Gaza”i have a heart for crows.
a Crow died and also lived here
likely dying during or before the brief, but deep snowdrifts of january 2024
and definitely not by predation; Crows are simply too smart for the local feral cat bird-killers (the only worthwhile information that author Jonathan Franzen ever imparted to me) — and work in groups to warn and defend against hawks and owls;
Continue reading “crow-hearted”
the limineen | earthling, poet & crone 